While miming a fit of sobs at work today, I almost shed real tears. I told my friends that I was moving out of my apartment *forever* on Thursday. It's not so much the apartment, but closing the door on the last semblence of independence I thought I had. It was sooo nice living with friends instead of family. You can do whatever the hell you wanted to. If you closed your door, it meant (very clearly) that you did not want to be spoken to.
It's not that living at home is so awful. I have it stupidly easy here. I get to drive whenever there's a free car; and I have a comfy room specifically for my use; I have a home-gym in the basement; my parents are awesome at understanding I am basically an adult.
Very basically. I feel like an Adult-Child. It's very depressing to me that now that I am done university, a graduate, that I will revert back to my high-school like zone of influence until I get a job where I make enough money to move out of the parental house. As much as I hate to admit it, I really want to see Post Grad with Alexis Bledel. The movie of my life, it seems. I think it's funny that they're making a movie about the "AHH!" moment after graduation where you realize you're supposed to have a "career path", and everything slowly slips from beneath your feet.
On a lighter subject, I am watching The Nightmare Before Christmas. I don't know why but periodically I love to watch Christmas movies. This is the perfect movie for me at the moment, because the October-February stretch is chaulk full of holidays, and the rest of the year, not so much. No one gets excited for Civic Holiday the way they do about Christmas. I think it might have to do with the fact that no food is associated with these holidays. All good holidays have a good food associated with them.
Halloween: Candy. Need I say more?
Thanksgiving: Turkey. Sweeet tryptophan. Pumpkin Pie.
Christmas: Either MORE Turkey (Which is never a bad thing) or Roast, and allll the associated Christmas foods: Apple Cider and Cinnamon EVERYTHING and Bailey's.
Valentine's Day: Cinnamon Hearts.
I guess Easter can sneak in there because of all the chocolate, but it's more religious than the others, which I suppose detracts from the tasty edibles.
Anyways, I can't wait until Autumn. It's my favourite season. I love comfy sweaters and wearing jeans and cosy shoes. I love big steaming cups of tea while the wind howls outside. I love when the leaves all set themselves on fire in a final farewell to warm weather and drop from their branches. I especially love when it rains and blows and it's chilly out and all the wet leaves are slick on the road. Oooo it makes me want to curl up right now under a blanket and feel protected.
Soon, it will be all pathetic fallasy, what with the stormy weather. Maybe it will even out. Right now I have the opposite of pathetic fallasy. The sunnier it gets, the moodier and snippier I am. Maybe when we hit Fall, I will be super happy as the days get more miserable. Here's hoping.
I wish I owned Hocus Pocus on DVD.
-Jess-
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